søndag den 9. september 2012

Sadisten der holder alle udbrud indadvendt.


Ironically enough, the entry I wrote last night was about sleep and how important it is to me... Well, I didn't sleep enough at all that night , because I had a 2 hour long anxiety attack. I fell asleep around 8 or 9 AM, I think. So today, I've been pretty beat because of that.

I'm feeling okay and pretty much just neutral, which is nice. I went for a 2 hour long walk a few hours ago, walking through Copenhagen as a form of meditation, so I'm pretty relaxed now. Feels good man, haha. So yeah, overall I'm just fine.
Now I'm enjoying a few Belgian café biscuits and listening to Placebo while cuddling up with my duvets. Relaxation, I have it!

I got my Sputnik tattoo redone a few days ago, and it's so much better now than it was before. White ink was added to the orb, the antennas straightened and also had a little moon tattooed next to the Sputnik. I'm so happy about it. I can't wait for it to be completely healed so the moon won't be as dark as it is right now, haha. But it's so much better now than it was before! I'll upload a picture of it when it's fully healed.



Du er inde i sindet på en mand der gennem et årti
Har danset på grænsen i håb om en fucking OD
Men jeg er her stadig, lidt mere end en smule beskadiget
Fra de substanser jeg valgte at drukne mit selvhad i
For at være ærlig, jeg er ikke noget særligt
Jeg er blot en nymoderne version af melankoliens bærme
Så jeg sidder sent op og plotter strategier
Så jeg ser negative energier aldrig mere
Det er så svært at kontrollere og en byrde at vide
At man skal lide for at komme igennem på den anden side
Så jeg er selvdestruktiv
På vej gennem 28. liv
Jeg synder - ubeskyttet, falder i og jagter lykken
I håb om at fjerne mit sinds trykken når væggen presser ryggen
Jeg hører ikke en stemme her i min desperation
Vil være alene i min glasskårsbeklædte trone
... lad mig gå tilbage til at blande noget blod og gift i mine årer
Hvorfor, så du kan se mig som hele verden gør det
Og jeg endnu en gang kan føle mig presset op i et hjørne
Og lade min vrede gå ud over den eneste der fortjener den
Sadisten der holder alle udbrud indadvendt

L.O.C - Tortur

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