And all that could have been.

My head is 18 mm away from being bald now. I'm actually really enjoying this length and I think it turned out way better than imagined. I don't think I've ever had this short hair in my life, it was even longer back when I was born.. I'm glad I ended up getting rid of it all, because I'm quite pleased with it.

My financial problems will hopefully be solved somewhere in next week, or else it will be solved on January 1st. I hope it will work out this week though, since I only have 150 DKK to live for right now. Cross your fingers for me!

I've been kind of confused about a lot of things lately, not really being able to pinpoint much. I guess it has just been a lot of thoughts in different directions and I've thought way too much about things.
I'm kind of ashamed to admit this because I had taken quite a lot pride in not doing it for so long, but I ended up harming myself yesterday. I'm trying not to think of it as a "relapse" but more as a "slip-up". The wounds are not bad, they're shallow and not nearly as many as I'd usually make in the past. More importantly, I came to the realization that this didn't make me gain the comfort I used to get when I did this in the past, so I'm not worried that this is something I'll do again (for a very long time at least.) Though I'm ashamed, I'm somehow "glad" I did it (please don't misunderstand that), because I really just realized that this is not the way to solve anything for me.
It's actually surprisingly difficult to write an entry these days, because I'm trying to not write about weight and food so much.  I'm back to 45 kg again. The staff of my residency have decided to start weighing me every Thursday which freaks me out.

Not many things are happening in my life right at the moment, not anything I'd like to write about here at least for the sake of others. But overall, things are okay. We're having another Christmas-get-together tomorrow evening, I'm looking forward to it. I hope to see some of the awesome people from the other houses and have a nice time with them. My sisters birthday is coming up soon, so I'll try to figure out a present for her tomorrow.
Despite the things written above, I'm doing good.