Ikke smerte nok, jeg må veje det op, lade nålen skære igennem mit pigment mens blodet pibler op.

I'm just going to write a bit about the last few days. I had a meltdown some days ago and posted the most pathetic and negative entry in the history of the world, but deleted it after I got some sleep. So if anyone read that - I'm sorry, I'm normally not that negative and whiny, I don't really know what came over me.

The last few days have been good. I went to the cinema with some fellow residents today, followed up by eating at a restaurant afterwards. I had a good time with them, also ended up going for a 3-hour-walk with one of the girls who will be moving in within the next months. I have never really had a conversation with her before since she lives in the other house, but she's seems really nice. I enjoyed our walk.
Yesterday I intended to have an isolation-day, but Laura came over and then I kind of ditched that whole idea because hanging out with Laura is awesome. Emilia also came over and the three of us just talked for a while. I also convinced Emilia to eat 12 "flødeboller" in 5 minutes... She felt pretty ill after that, haha.
I visited my mum over the weekend. I've really missed her, so it was great to see her and catch up on things.

And my sleep schedule has been normal for the last few days! This is beyond amazing. I've been able to fall asleep early, not wake up in the middle of the night, and wake up in the morning. It's been so good and I guess I'm just really excited about this.
Oh, and last night I dreamt that I was in a fight with a midget. I don't even...

I just have to keep myself going, because I tend to fall quite hard these days. Because of the last few days with socializing I've been in a better state of mind. I won't say I feel good, but the days have been good and I've been okay. Last week was really horrible though, lots of anxiety, loneliness, debating with myself whether or not to give up, and generally just feeling worse than I have in a long time. I'm spending tomorrow with Jonas, so I have nice plans for tomorrow aswell. I'm looking forward to seeing him again.

And this song is amazing.