So I went to Tisvilde and I had a really great time there. I spent the evenings on laughing and chilling in front of the fireplace, looking at stars and having fun with my roommates. Overall it was just a really great trip and I had a lot of fun. Mikkel, Stefan and I went to the nearby seashore and looked at the waves on the first evening we were there. Very spontanously, it ended up like this....
It was lots of fun. It actually wasn't as cold as I thought it would be. At least not in the water, but when we got up on land again it felt like my legs were about to fall off, haha. Even though I'm sick now and the cause of it is probably that, it was all worth it. I haven't felt so alive in ages. (and strangely enough, that was also something to do with being cold. Laid in the snow a few years ago.)
(The music was Mikkel's suggestion btw.)
My boyfriend is currently hospitalized, and I'm both happy that he is but it also makes my heart clench. I'm really happy that he's hospitalized because he's finally getting the help he needs, but it saddens me to see how much pain he is in. I miss him a lot, I have only seen him once this week for approximately 15 minutes. It's very hard on me which results in me behaving badly because of that. I'm going to see him tomorrow though, and later on I'll hang out with Emilia.
My own mental state isn't that great these days, and bad thoughts are starting to come back. It's not fun to wake up and the first thought in your head is how horrible a person you are and how there's no point in your life. I'm feeling lonely these days and I feel a lot of frustration and anger because of some situations in my life. The moods are something I can handle, but the thoughts aren't really.
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